Hopes and Dreams

So, as many of you know, Michelle is graduating in December with her Masters. We've been talking a long time about after her graduating, moving up to Bossier City where her parents live. It would be alot closer to both of our families. We'd be living in the same town as her parents and grandparents instead of a 4.5 hour drive. We'd be 2.5 hours from my grandparents instead of 5, and 4.5-5 hours from my mom instead of 6.7-7. Plus, we both like Bossier alot better than Baton Rouge. Anyway, like I said in a previous post, Michelle will probably have a job when we move up there. That's awesome and exciting. I, however, am still worried that without a degree I will have trouble finding a job. Because of that and things at work (I'll talk about that in a bit) I've already started looking. I've already applied at the new Cyber Innovation Center. It's a new company opening up in Bossier City, dealing with cyperspace security and research. It hasn't opened yet though. Michelle's aunt works for a company where the innovation center will be pulling alot of their employee's. Also, a friend of Michelle's family has been working closely with one of the big wig's for the center and he has thrown my name out there too. So, hopefully my name has been out longer than most other applicants. That would be a great job if I got it. Exactly the type of job I want, and so much room for growth. However, when Michelle's aunt was talking to them about me, they did bring up the fact that I don't have a degree. DOH!!! My biggest fears coming to fruition. Michelle said her aunt replied, "Well, I don't have a degree either and I've been working here for seven years." GO AUNT!!! That was really awesome of her. However, it still stings that I might get overlooked because of not having a degree. Damn me and the stupid mistakes I've made in the past. It seems like they'll haunt me forever. I know that the won't, because I'm slowly fixing them, but still. I hate the fact that it seems Michelle has to pay for some of the mistakes I made. Michelle says she knew my mistakes and problems before she married me, and she knew what she was getting into, but it still doesn't make it ok that she has to pay for my stupid, childish mistakes. I really hope I get that job, or some job up there soon. My company here just filed chapter 11 bankruptcy. That means we're not closing our doors, we just have all our debt cleared, but all future business has to be monitored by the judge and business professionals. The way I understand it, they made out a business plan, and we have to follow it. I am pretty sure that this business plan has two installs a week in it. That's not possible. We are installing this new software that only I really have been trained on (1 week of training in June, whoopie), so that pretty much means that I'm going on every install. I was gone last week from Monday morning till thursday night, getting back at midnight Thursday night. This week, we are supposed to do an install tomorrow, which means I'll probably be out of town this week from Tuesday till probably Thursday or Friday. And we have about 8 more installs lined up after this one. I can't do that. I can't be out of town every week for 9 more weeks. But, no one else knows the software, and there is no time to train anyone. I feel like I've learned as much as I ever will at this job. I'm already support manager, so there's no room for promotion, just raises...which won't come anytime soon considering they just filed bankruptcy. I sometimes feel like the company is slowly circling the drain. Definitely slowly, but still going down all the same. This job is not where I want to spend the rest of my years working. I had big hopes when I became manager of changing how things went and making processes and procedures better. However, with the small number of employess, and the work that keeps piling up, there is no time to execute these new procedures. Also, none of the other managers/big wigs seem to be motivated to help. They just want to coast, and do enough to get by, so I have no support in making the changes needed. And when I do suggest something, they all look at me like I'm sucking up to the boss man. I definitely feel like I'm in a stagnant, dead in job again, and want to get out. I feel like my only hope is getting a job up in Bossier as soon as possible and quitting this job. I really don't think Michelle would have a problem with me moving up there sooner than her, seeing as how we can't apply for a house until we know our salaries up there. Anyway, pray for us...that I will get a good job (or that I will get the job at the Cyber Innovation Center) and pray that Michelle is not too stressed out with work or school. Pray for us in general.

If I'm a prince...

I'm only a prince cuz I've married a princess.

The Prince

Let me preface everything I'm about to say by saying I love my husband. I don't know if it was the age that we met. Maybe we were still evolving into the people we would become, but my husband has turned into quite the diva lately. When I met him, he slept on a hand-me-down water bed that didn't have sheets. Instead of sheets, he just used blankets that never really stayed tucked in and left your skin exposed to the cold plastic during the middle of the night. Well, right after we got married I was able to get a really good deal on a set of sheets. They were 1000 thread count Eygptian Cotton, and they were insanely marked down. So, I had to get them with one of our giftcards. I guess my expensive taste wore off on John over time because he started to love the sheets too. Lexi, the demon that she is, chewed a huge hole in our top sheet. When we went back to Bed, Bath, and Beyond, the best sheets that we could get were a 620 thread count. We just weren't about to spend $200 on sheets. Well, last night all I heard about was how rough those sheets were on his delicate little skin. It's just so funny hearing him say those things. My, how five years will change a man.